Life is what happens

Born This Way

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 17:16:21 -0500

I wish I was one of those happy people
Never a trace of sadness on their face
Nor in an eye or in their gait
Disappointments make them smile brighter
Laugh harder and look forward to the next day
Why wasn’t I born that way
I Love it when the Sun shines and even when it rains
Grey clouds follow me though, float above me in my haze
The confusion I’ve created , a million times I run away
To find New Beginnings, but end up in the same place
Happiness Frequents, but Never does it stay
Why was I born this way?
I want to stay content, but it quickly fades
I’m scared too many notice, so most times I pull away
My Ups and Down are too much for me,
So imagine what they see
I wish that it were easy to stay so positive
find away to stay sweet even if its Not how I feel
I know that when I’m down that it’s Not for long
I know that since I’m Alive I should rejoice be because
I’m not gone, but still with all that is good
My smile does not comply
You see the sadness on my face, in my eye and in my gait
You see it turn to anger because it just won’t go away
And that is what I Hate
I was Born this way

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Wed, 18 Jul 2012 22:06:46 -0400

2Pac: And since we all came from a woman, got our name from a woman and our game from a woman, I wonder why we take from our women. Why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think it's time to kill for our women, time to heal our women, be real to our women. And if we don't we'll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies that make the babies. And since a man can't make one, he has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one.

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 22:05:01 -0400

2Pac: And since we all came from a woman, got our name from a woman and our game from a woman, I wonder why we take from our women. Why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think it's time to kill for our women, time to heal our women, be real to our women. And if we don't we'll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies that make the babies. And since a man can't make one, he has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one.
Jay-Z: Silly rappers, because we got a couple Porsches, MTV stopped by to film our fortresses. We forget the unfortunate. Sure I ponied up a mill, but I didn't give my time. So in reality I didn't give a dime, or a damn. I just put my monies in the hands of the same people that left my people stranded. Nothin' but a bandit, left them folks abandoned. Damn, that money that we gave was just a band-aid, can't say we better off than we was before.
Kanye West: Is it genocide? 'Cause I can still hear his momma cry, know the family traumatized. Shots left holes in his face, 'bout piranha-size. The old pastor closed the cold casket, and said the church ain’t got enough room for all the tombs. It’s a war going on outside we ain’t safe from, I feel the pain in my city wherever I go. 314 soldiers died in Iraq, 509 died in Chicago.
Mos Def: When the average minimum wage is $5.15, you best believe you gotta find a new grind to get cream. The white unemployment rate, is nearly more than triple for black so frontliners got they gun in your back. Bubblin crack, jewel theft and robbery to combat poverty and end up in the global jail economy. Stiffer stipulations attached to each sentence. Budget cutbacks but increased police presence. And even if you get out of prison still livin join the other five million under state supervision. This is business, no faces just lines and statistics from your phone, your zip code, to S-S-I digits. The system break man child and women into figures. Two columns for who is, and who ain't niggaz. Numbers is hardly real and they never have feelings but you push too hard, even numbers got limits. Why did one straw break the camel's back? Here's the secret: the million other straws underneath it - it's all mathematics
Lupe Fiasco: I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit. Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets. How much money does it take to really make a full clip. 9/11 building 7 did they really pull it. And a bunch of other cover ups. Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts. If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut. The school was garbage in the first place, thats on the up and up. Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust. You get it then they move you so you never keeping up enough. If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the fucks”. Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such. And that aint Jersey Shore, homie thats the news. And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth. Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist. Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit. Thats why I aint vote for him, next one either. I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful. And I believe in the people.
Eminem: I deserve respect; but I work a sweat for this worthless check, Bout to burst this tech, at somebody to reverse this debt. Minimum wage got my adrenaline caged full of venom and rage, And my daughter's down to her last diaper. I pray that god answers, maybe I'll ask nicer.These overnight stars becoming autograph signers.We all long to blow up and leave the past behind us. Cause we see them dollar signs and let the cash blind us Money will brainwash you and leave your ass mindless. My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I'm hoping things will look up, But there ain't no job openings.I feel discouraged hungry and malnourished. Living in this house with no furnace, unfurnished...And I'm sick of working dead end jobs with lame pay.And I'm tired of being hired and fired the same day. But fuck it, if you know the rules to the game play. Cause when we die we know were all going the same way. Walk around depressed and smoke a pound of ses a day and yesterday went by so quick it seems like it was just today. My daughter wants to throw the ball but I'm too stressed to play. Live half my life and throw the rest away

then there's lil wayne and his crew who make it look bad:
lil wayne: i like my house big and my grass soft pussy pussy pussy suck my dick
nicki minaj: you a stupid hoe, you a you a stupid hoe
tyga: got yo grandma on my dick, 10 10 10 20's

opal-leaves: ‎”THROUGH A RAPIST’S EYES” (PLS TAKE TIME TO READ...

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 21:48:13 -0400

opal-leaves:

‎”THROUGH A RAPIST’S EYES” (PLS TAKE TIME TO READ THIS. it may save a life.) Reblog this!

It seems that alot of attackers use some tactic to get away with violence. Not many people know how to take care of themselves when faced with such a
situation. Everyone should read this especially each n every girl in this world. THOUGHT THIS WAS GOOD INFO TO PASS ALONG…

FYI - Through a rapist’s eyes! A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:

1] The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle.
They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun! , braid, or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.

2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who’s clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.

3] They also look for women using their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.

4] The number one place women are abducted from / attacked at is grocery store parking lots.

5] Number two is office parking lots/garages.

6] Number three is public restrooms.

7] The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don’t have to worry about getting caught.

8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn’t worth it because it will be time-consuming.

9] These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas,or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.

10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you’re not worth it.

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POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:

1] If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk:
can’t believe it is so cold out here, we’re in for a bad winter. Now that you’ve seen their faces and could identify them in a line- up, you lose appeal as a target.

2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they’d leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would
not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.

3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.

4] If someone grabs you, you can’t beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and
armpit or in the upper inner thigh - HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.

5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy’s parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you’ll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our
instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he’s out of there.

6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using
much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.

7] Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don’t dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel
little silly at the time, but you’d feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.

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FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ….

I know you are smart enough to know these pointers but there will be some, where you will go “hmm I must remember that” After reading forward it to someone you care about, never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.

1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it.

2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans : if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you…. chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or
purse than you and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!

3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won’t see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.

4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping,eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON’T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side,put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU CLOSE the DOORS , LEAVE.

5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
a. Be aware: look around your car as someone may be
hiding at the passenger side , peek into your car, inside the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. ( DO THIS TOO BEFORE RIDING A TAXI CAB) .
b. If you! u are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
c. Look at the car parked on the driver’s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)

6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).

7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!

8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked “for help” into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.

Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it’s better safe than sorry.

If u have a heart or compassion reblog this post.
‘Helping hands are better than Praying Lips’ – give us your helping hand.

REBLOG THIS AND LET EVERY GIRL KNOW
ATLEAST PEOPLES WILL KNOW WATS GOIN IN THIS WORLD.
So please reblog this….Your one reblog can Help to spread this information.
I hope you all will Reblog. Lets See how many of you really care for this.

DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT NOT REBLOGGING THIS! IT COULD ACTUALLY SAVE A LIFE.

I just thought this was a funny article in February’s...

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 14:24:20 -0500

I just thought this was a funny article in February’s issue of Cosmopolitan. I Really do believe those Are some valid questions that they Are dying to ask! LOL!!!

The long awaited first single from the highly anticipated album...

Mon, 16 Jan 2012 01:44:46 -0500

The long awaited first single from the highly anticipated album Cake Or Death out spring 2011.

Produced by M-Phazes (intro produced by Jean Grae)

Visit www.jeangrae.com for information and updates. Follow Jean Grae on twitter @jeangreasy

Inspired

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 01:35:39 -0500

"Iam so sad about Ben Breedlove. I watched the video he left for the world to see, and him seeing me..."

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 01:11:11 -0500

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Iam so sad about Ben Breedlove. I watched the video he left for the world to see, and him seeing me in detail, in his vision really warmed my heart. I broke down, Iam to tears because I hate how life is so unfair. This has really touched my heart in a way I cant describe, this is why I do what I do. Why I write my life, and why I love you all so much. Life is really fucked up sometimes, but I know Ben is at Peace, and I hope he gets a chance to sit and talk with my Dad. We love you Ben. Forever. Thank you for loving me. To Ben’s family, you raised a real hero, he’s definately mine. You have my love.

Scott Mescudi

”

- (via cudlife)

"because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or..."

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 13:45:09 -0400

““because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. remembering that you are going to die is the best way i know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. you are already naked. there is no reason not to follow your heart.””

- Steve Jobs (via frankocean)

vintageblackglamour: Being a star made it possible for me to...

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 20:21:59 -0400

vintageblackglamour:

Being a star made it possible for me to get insulted in places where the average Negro could never hope to go and get insulted. ~ Sammy Davis Jr.

"because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or..."

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 20:21:10 -0400

Everything, yet Nothing

Thu, 06 Oct 2011 16:03:00 -0400

If I could have gotten a dime for every compliment I received today! Damn, I would have made a little something. As I do appreciate them, I despise them all at the same time. They kind of remind me of everything they don’t see, everything I don’t have. I’m beautiful, they say; well, why then do I have no one to hold me on a day like today and not judge me for feeling like a failure? Would they still think I was gorgeous, sexy and pretty if they saw all my wounds, self inflicted and afflicted? If they saw all my flaws and how I’m not as secure and confident as I may give off at a glance at times. Would they look? If they knew how lost I felt would their eyes still linger? If they knew my plight would I even be worth a skim? Not everyone of my days are dark nor do I live in despair, but I want some one to see me when the sun isn’t shining and all is not right and still see the goddess that I am.

"Sometime when you least expect it, you’ll realize that someone loved you. And that means that..."

Mon, 19 Sep 2011 13:38:55 -0400

“Sometime when you least expect it, you’ll realize that someone loved you. And that means that someone can love you again. And that’ll make you smile.”

- Homer J. Simpson

(Found via @RealLifeKaz)

Amy, Amy,Amy

Fri, 29 Jul 2011 12:25:13 -0400

My heart is still heavy for a woman that I never knew personally, but only through captivating melodies and emotionally drenched words. She sang songs of stories that my heart recognized too well, all from the depths of her soul touching mine. As a fan of her glorious gift and loyal supporter I was extremely appalled by some very negative feedback surrounding this songbird’s death.

When I first caught wind of Amy and her tantalizing voice on “Rehab”, it instantly made me curious for more. I listened to her soul bearing songs, such as “Back to Black” and “Tears Dry on their own.” It was evident to me right away that she had been in pain and/or still was; it was like reading a diary. That alone led me to adore her, her pieces hit so close to home. It’s not the fact that she was in any distress, but the fact that most could identify with bouts with love, heart break, depression, regret, even recklessness. I liked the fact that she was just plane Human; a young woman like myself with such emotion who can be vulnerable at times and has a heart that breaks too. This is exactly why I can’t understand why some took to certain sites, posted such horrible things implying that her death was her fault. Some called it a waste of talent; some even implied that because she was well off, such a thing should not have happened. These people must not have listened to her songs; otherwise they would have sympathized with the words that so beautifully bled out of her. They would have understood how it is to fall or spin out of control at times. They would have understood that real people sometimes go through things that no one can save them from and may or may not ever come back from.

I recently saw a video clip of the songstress in which she expressed in words and appearance how it was some what difficult it was to sing the songs that were written at a time of depression. It seemed as if it just opened up old wounds. I write poetry from time to time and rarely like to read what I wrote for the simple fact that it reminds me of feelings I once had that I want to forget or even am too ashamed of ever feeling. Imagine having to relive certain things on the regular basis in such a state of emotional distress, some can’t deal and it can take specific tolls on one.

I may not know exactly all that went on in Amy’s personal world, but I do know her life was definitely not a waste. She was truly blessed and blessed us with a good douse of music saturated with pieces of life that was sung with her heart. Amy was just one of us as we all are simple human beings with extraordinary gifts, but are not immortal or exempt from confusion, pain, anguish, addiction or death. I just hope that her time here on Earth wasn’t all as dark as it sometimes appeared and that she is at peace right now and for eternity.

Soraya Davis

The Lone Journey

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 14:15:03 -0400

I’m a pretty socialable, friendly , loving person when all is smoothe in my life. It hasn’t been smoothe in quite sometime. One problem after another leading to another so fast that before I could fix one, the other was tumbling my way. I got so overwhelmed with trying to figure out solutions it became messy and unorganized in my view. I didn’t want any one else to see the disaster I felt that I’ve become.

I took a journey all on my own. I separated myself from a lot of people and places. I didn’t want to annoy my friends with my issues and bring them down. I didn’t want anyone to depend or expect anything from me because I knew personally, I would let someone down. They all have it together (at least in my eyes) and I saw myself as broken. I thought I would be fixed by now, but I’m not. Now it seems I’ve gone too far to ever return if I even wanted. I feel as if I have nothing to show for this social hiatus, like I’m still stuck. I feel ashamed.

Today I texted an old friend, told her that we had to catch up and that I love and miss her, she responded “yes”. As minuscule as that 1 one word is it hurt a ton. My typed out feelings seemed not to be reciprocated. I lost our dear friendship due to letting everything go. I thought I was doing everyone a favor, it just dawned on me that maybe I meant something more to the ones I left behind. Maybe they didn’t see me as the walking disaster I saw myself as. Maybe I was too hard on Myself. Maybe It wasn’t that Serious.

I Lost sooooo Much More just by thinking that I didn’t have anything to offer anyone.

Just Like That

Sun, 27 Feb 2011 23:36:09 -0500

Some days are just Better than Others

Though broken and barely covering myself, I shared my umbrella with you When the Storms arrived and...

Mon, 20 Dec 2010 10:48:00 -0500

Though broken and barely covering myself, I shared my umbrella with you
When the Storms arrived and the Winds blew
I Never let you hit the ground,
though I was falling too
I Never saw what was right in
front of me just heard the words
you fed me; I ate ‘em, I was
hungry. Starving for a Love, @
least I thought I was
We made a mess w/Lust, there
was never meant to be an Us
I thought I knew You, I was
mistaken, U flipped the script
on me, didn’t know I was in the
wrong play
And you watched me
Thats what Hurts
U watched me Fall, Break n Shatter from Your Hands
Did I ever Matter? Damn

Life

Wed, 13 Oct 2010 17:46:43 -0400

As a 28 yr old female, I am just learning about and coming to terms with how Life WORKS. Things happen that you have no control over sometimes because that’s just the way its supposed to be. You can Hope,Pray and/or think about how something will be…. does not necessarily mean It will be. This Universe is Vast and Full, there are too many variables in time that may change courses, plans, feelings ect….You just roll with the punches as they come and ride the wave as steady as you can til’ its over. Life is to be lived, not planned. It’s a never ending game that continues day to day, its how you play that will Actually Matter in the End.